Sunday, May 28, 2006
~nothing tastes as sweet as what i can't have~
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HOO~~~~ the holidays are here! Its time for some serious slacking and decomposing....
but like any happy time theres always something lurking behind ready to kill us -_-lll
-this sucks!-
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~ am i me?~
How do we be ourselves when all around people are expecting you to be who they would like to meet. The fact is the term "be yourself" just doesn't stand out as it should. We pray for acceptance in the world with the sacrifice of our very own nature, our soul till one day we would be another replica of the people who surrounds us. Very soon we all would be like a blank piece of paper, written with the same content. We started off being ourself, we ended off being like them. Like any other we will become a slave, a morsel waiting to be eaten up and finally be accepted into this world. No matter how much u might disagree with me, are u sure to say tt u have actually been the way u r all this while? Its hard to be ourselves without sacrificing a part of us some even go to the point of no return... wake up and see things for yourself.
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They say "whats on the outside doesn't matter what matters most is inside" ( INSIDE MY ASS ) face it would u go up to a 1 eyed, missing nose guy and say tt appearance don't matter and u would like to be his friend?? I bet u wouldn't even wanna let him smell half of ur ass if you could. But to those who would i really take my hats off to you :D.
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If you asked whats all this for?? Well its nth really its just something for u to think about once in a while. To those reading this -what's left of you? Are you YOU? or are you just another person now?
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think about it...im like anyone else still praying for acceptance...
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~we breathe alone, but we share the same breath~
5/28/2006 03:46:00 PM
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
~These iron bars can't hold my soul in, all I need is you~
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The dreadful feelings of me not being able to succeed this year is slowly creeping futher and futher. Im repeting the mistakes done before and to top it all off, im making them worst! Im not changing for the better, im carrying on by being worst... did i make the right choice by repeting my school year? If so, all i can tell you now- i don't think so.. the "expected" thoughts of a repete student to know their subjects better doesn't seem to apply to me.. i seem to be struggling even more than ever before.. the thoughts off dropping out of school are slowly influencing me. I totally feel like giving up!
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should i have left and not suffer this outcome? But then again i might succeed and make it even better.. the only logical and obvious answer to this is to persevere but how can it happen now when im already at this state...may time pass by and hopefully something might come along and pull me out from the situation.
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Im going back to old ways.
To the dark days.
5/23/2006 09:30:00 PM
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
kom bak pau
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Haiz there goes my mid- year, didn't miserably bad, totally not satisfied. What am i to do when my parents are going to be called in for a meeting!( kai men ar!)
Even having doubts in passing my freakin N'level haiz...
but oh well, i wouldn't let such a tiney winey little small thing bother me.=D
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~KOM BAK PAU~
5/09/2006 04:16:00 PM
Monday, May 08, 2006
look at this freakin cool ipod nano!too bad i don't have the cash to get one yet..BUT ONE DAY I WILL!
for now all i can do is just sit back and admire this beauty..
5/08/2006 06:03:00 PM
Friday, May 05, 2006
~jacqueline~
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The girl with a single smile
The girl born an ugly child
With looks tt is only true
U make ppl wanna eat their shoes!
U make me puke when u turn around
U make desperate guys lick the ground
Your friends are always by ur side
but all ur giving is ur face,
which is a backside.
Ur hideous to look
but ur damn hell strange
ur walking around
but looking like being
hit by a train
Go to ur hole
where u belong
Its safer tt way
rather than showing ur thong( G string)
Dun come back now and plz be gone
and take ur dinosaur sister along.
This is all for u and only U
now those who read this will eat their shoes.
1 smile tts IT
where're all knocked out
and this is over
all tt ur about.
...:+:JR:+:...
5/05/2006 09:31:00 PM
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
~deep thoughts~
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smling out
bleeding within
im trying real hard
to keep the feelings in
im hurting myself by letting u go
the feeling so deep
u would never know
im tired of this
the waiting and the hiding
but some people say
love is just blinding
now im lost
sad like before
what should i do?
love u no more?
but thats impossible
the unthinkable
the thought is terrible
the feeling is unbearable
i guess im back
with an unsoundly mind
and the feeling
of being stab all the time
it cant be helped
even if u tried
u wont hear from me
my silent cries
5/02/2006 04:07:00 PM
look at this freakin cool ipod nano!